pathetic me?

i think so.

I think I've not been fair to Jeremy. I know he's been super busy; and for me to demand more from him? I think I'm just not understanding enough?

But what can I say?

He used to give me all the time he could, no matter how busy he would be. Ok...maybe that was when he was excited bout us? Maybe the excitement has died out for him too? Or MAYBE he just is way busy the way he says he is???

WHY CAN'T I UNDERSTAND?

I love him to bits...I do.
*should stop saying that; I might think I'm persuading myself to be in love*
I know I love him; no questions about THAT!

I just worry..I sure am a worrier.
But blame me not for worrying I'll loose one I love so much? And I'm too screwed in the head to see that all I'm doing is ruining it all!!!


eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee


I must get a life. I must bake more and learn to drive. Maybe get a second job! Yes! That might be good; especially for my bank account!
*kaaaaaaaaa ccchHHHIIINNGGGG!!!*

$$$$$$

ohh the joys that money can buy me. the lil joys!
haha ok so that should NOT be my goal...but...for now
moeny sure can buy me a smile!

=)