PhD. I'd say!!!

i have a sudden need for emotional diarreah. ok well...not sudden. Its been awhile now. I need a better way to unload all this crap off me, cause of late;

I'm so *goddammit* too damn fucking busy being ED's girlfriend; I forgot how to be Jeremy's girlfriend.

I'm ashamed and downright guilty of foul play! I swear I don't mean it..but how can I help myself anymore? I was and have been busy making a life with ED was before I even knew Jeremy's existance! Oh Lord! How can I erase a past of FIVE whole years and try replace it with a mere 2 to 3 months?

I'm sad. Deep within I want to be without ED. I want to get rid of ED.
I just want to be well and healthy, build a future. A real one, not just a dream.

EVERYDAY poor Jeremy has to listen to me complain bout my aches. But..I really am in pain.
I think I should see another counsellor???

A counsellor needs minimun PhD. qualifications to become one. Which means, they study approximately 10 years. Then for the rest of their sorry ass life, they give physactratic treatments to well....basically....Physcos?

In the course of the past 2 years, minus this one, I've seen a total of 5 counsellors and one demon deliver aka pastor. haha.
It must be why I'm more mad than before? I finally understand why people joke and say that a PhD. holder has a Permenant Head Damage. In this case..its well and proved to be truer than true =l bugger it...